Bad photo because it’s so zoomed in… but look at this precious woodpecker drinking from the Bird of Paradise bloom…
In the Gloaming
For the first time in my life I’m happy Christmas is over.
It was tough, to say the least. I didn’t cook. Family left early. A card was sent apologizing.
You know that time at sunset when the color flares bright then gradually begins to fade? It’s my least favorite time.
In fact, I like sunrises better.
Surviving
I’m having a difficult time this Christmas. It’s like going through menopause again: sadness, hysteria, anger, bursting into tears for no reason… I was sad when my adoptive parents passed, but losing my father is something completely different. And I only had him for three years! (Here comes the anger again.)
Thought it was getting better but it’s worse. Maybe after Christmas?
Many years ago after a breakup I was gifted the book “How to Survive the Loss of a Love”. It helped immensely and found it was good for other losses as well. Just ordered a new copy.
Now
I’m trying to live in the Now. Not past, not future, just now. You know, like a dog. It’s difficult.
It’s also pretty tough to come up with blog fodder when all the living in Now is mostly in my head. But… here’s what’s happening in my life.
Started: Jana DeLeon’s Miss Fortune series. Currently on book 13: Swamp Spook.
Saying: Christ the King Novena, thanks to Pray More Novenas dot com.
Accomplished: Finally finished painting and cleaning the living/dining room! Now on to the hall.
Recommend: Sr. Mary Martha’s Pause for Prayer on Facebook live every morning. One of the Daughters of St. Paul, she is also singing with their choir.
Looking forward to: Advent and my new Memento Mori Advent companion.
Now: Listening to my sister in law bitch.
Next: Yard cleanup.
Earlier this week: My view from the sofa…













